Wow. Totally didn't realize it had been this long since I've updated this thing. Guess it's about time eh?

Well, lots of stuff has happened since July. Namely....college. It's what I expected and a bunch of surprises all at the same time. I've found a solic group of friends. It's amazing how fast you get to know people you're forced to live next to. I feel as if I've known my neighbor longer than I've known some of my best friends in high school. And I've known her for all of a month and a half. And she knows me just as well. I find it astounding. It's awesome, really.

But at the same time, the stress of my major is starting to get to me. Okay, no. It's gotten me good. I've already debated changing my major three times. But with my advisor's word in my mind (he's also my flute professor which makes what he said all the more heartening) saying that he has no doubt that I could succeed--not just barely scrape by, but actually succeed--in the music program, I am going to stick with a music major for the remainder of the year and see how it goes from there. After that...well, I'll decide English or music ed. when registering for next fall. So yeah. Here's hoping I don't die in the process.

As for other stuff...not much has really happened. Which is strange. It seems like so much has happened. I guess I could go into details about what's gone on here at college, but that would get very boring and no doubt confusing, since most of the stuff are "you had to have been there" moments. So I won't bore you. But it's been an amazing experience so far. Stressful to the max, but amazing nonetheless.

And because I have nothing better to do with my time besides ice my stupid knee.

Your Boy Side

[x] you love hoodies.
[x] you love jeans.
[x] dogs are better than cats
[/] it's hilarious when people get hurt. (if it's my brothers, hell yeah)
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team. (ultimate frisbee anyone?)
[ ] shopping is torture. (Not so much, but it can get boring)
[ ] sad movies suck (sometimes tears are good....<.<)
[x] you own an x-box (HELL YEAH)
[x] played with hotwheels cars as a kid. (and still have them)
[ ] at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] you own a DS, PS2 or sega. (one of them)
[ ] you used to be obsessed with power rangers.
[x] you watch sports on TV (Olympics, Tour de France, softball, NCAA football...just to name a few)
[/] gory movies are cool (depending on level of gore)
[/] you go to your dad for advice (for computer stuff, mostly, and sometimes theology)
[x] you own like a trillion baseball caps. (and wear about 3 of them regularly)
[x] you like going to football games. (Even though I have to (*is in marching band*) I still love them)
[x] you used to/do collect baseball cards. (the box is on a shelf in my closet)
[x] baggy pants are cool to wear. (can you say comfortable?)
[ ] it's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. (green, silver, and blue)
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what people think. (when with certain friends, hell yeah)
[x] sports are fun (when I get to beat guys, YES!)
[ ] talk with food in your mouth (I hate the sound of chewing >.< ))
[ ] wear boxers. (I'm not that crazy)

Total = 16 1/2 (tomboy)

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Your girl side

[/] you wear lip gloss. (for special occasions)
[x] you love to shop. (with Mom)
[ ] you wear eyeliner. (not even for special occasions. Stick near eye? No thanks)
[ ] you have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] you wear the color pink. (HELL NO!!)
[x] go to your mom for advice.
[ ] you consider cheerleading a sport (IT IS SO NOT A SPORT! There's no bruises involved)
[x] you hate wearing the color black (I live in a desert. black = stupid color in heat)
[x] you like hanging out at the mall. (especially the book store part)
[x] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures. (they feel good)
[x] you like wearing jewelry (celtic knitwork earrings and necklace plus purity ring)
[ ] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe. (Not really, no)
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] you don't like the movie star wars. (Star Wars = EPIC)
[ ] you are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance. (though I do want to learn how to salsa...)
[ ] it takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories. (try 15 minutes)
[ ] you smile a lot more than you should.
[x] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes. (unfortunately)
[/] you care about what you look like.(as long as it's comfortable and clean)
[ ] you like wearing dresses when you can. (hell. no.)
[x] you like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne. (I wear guys deodorant cuz it smells nicer than girls)
[x] you wear girl underwear. (uh...duh?)
[ ] used to play with dolls as little kid. (I can proudly say I do not own a barbie)
[ ] like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored. (O.o People do this?)

Total: 10

and I have no clue what this means so...yeah. Enjoy the comments from the peanut gallery!

Edited for even more Lulz!

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Hair then face

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Um.....probably my garnet one from CWU...cuz it's still fuzzy inside

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
well...this would require actually kissing someone in the first place, now wouldn't it?

4. Do you plan outfits?
rarely. And then only for concerts.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
tired, and wanting pain meds for my stupid knee

7. Who was the last person you kissed?
....my mom?

8. Person before that?
can't remember

10. What are you craving right now?
A Georgia mud fudge blizzard from DQ

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
boiled cabbage with butter and salt and pepper. Yum!

12. Do you make prank calls?
I have once. Well, in a way. I picked up the phone at the winery I work for and said "Hello! Pizza Hut, this is Katy, how can I help you?"

13. Ever hooked up with some one out of state?
Nope

14. Do you sleep with any stuff animals?
My tiger, chicken, and leopard shark. Don't ask.

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
Maybe. A very BIG maybe.

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
No, but I have counted the holes in the drop-down ceiling tiles during chem class during lecture...

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
A combination of both. Because I'm tricky like that.

18. Do you like anyone right now?
Sure, but you ain't findin' out who.

19. What do you think of crickets?
Very pretty at night to fall asleep to.

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Can you say...Martina McBride?

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Hell. No.

22. What are you listening to right now?
Sonata in G by Mozart. Yes. I am a nerd.

25. Would you go sky diving?
Hell yeah!

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
Depends on what's for dinner.

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
Nope. I may not agree with some of his politics, but I at least respect the office.

28. Is there anything sparkly on you?
Not really...

30. Do you rent movies often?
Netflix anyone?

31. Who sits behind you in your math class?
Uh....1) It's summer = no school, and 2) I'm avoiding math for as long as humanly possible

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
Is this a trick question?

35. Who are you going to be with tonight??
My stuffed animals. They have feelings too!

36. Brown or white egg?
Totally brown. They haven't had the hell bleached out of them like supermarket eggs. And they taste better.

38. Ever been on a train?
An immobile one. As in, not on the tracks anymore.

39. Ever told someone you loved them?
Besides family? No. And even then, I'm not too sure....<.<

40. Do you have a cell phone?
Yes, but it's rarely charged enough to be of much use other than a very bright glare.

41. Are you a virgin?
Proud of it.

42. Any kids?
Not for a while yet.

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
Probably being bored and actually having computer access. Something I'm not supposed to have right now.

44. Ever had cream puffs?
hell yeah. little powdered sugar makes 'em even better

45. Ever had Breaded Shrimp?
Who hasn't?

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes, and was really creaped out.

47. What was the last question you asked?
What did he just say? (in reference to a MASH episode I couldn't hear over the box fan taking up half the chair)

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Martina McBride's latest one when I saw her in concert. It's even signed. *flaunts*

49. What is/was your bus number for school?
I never took the bus. Lived too close. I walked or drove, depending on the grade level.

51. Is your hair curly?
Only towards the ends.

52. Last time you cried?
All too recently.

53. Ever walked into a wall?
Many times. You'd think I'd have figured out how to walk through a door by now.

54. Ever walked UP a wall?
Nope. Took one look and decided the stairs were the better option. I ain't no Spiderwoman.

55. Have you ever bought anything from PacSun?
A watch. That was it. In the clearance bin, even.

56. Favorite time of the year?
spring and fall. not too hot, but not cold either, yet still pretty.

57. Whats your favorite number?
12

58. Favorite colours?
lime green, orange, light blues, garnets, aqua

59. Do you have any piercings?
Just ears. I'm a wuss, and I'd be kicked out of the house for anything more.

60. Do you have any tattoos?
Nope. Again, would be kicked out after having said tattoo removed with a kitchen knife.

61.Who was the last person you held hands with?
A girl I was babysitting named Sarah. Lame, no?

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Nope. It's not white noise. Too interesting. Even the History Channel.

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
At the winery I work for.

64. Why was your default picture taken?
Because it was pretty outside.

65. Do you like your life right now?
Lots of stress, but not anything to really complain about.

66. How do you feel about 'love'?
a little disbelieving...but...hopeful

67. What is your favorite animal?
Dragons, wolves, foxes, lynxes, hawks, tigers, sharks, cardinals, and jays to name a few...

69. Do you have good vision?
I'm legally blind without contacts.

70. Can you hula hoop?
nope, my hips don't move that way.

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I've never been put into that position, so I don't really know.

72. Do you have a job?
Two, actually.

74. What are you wearing?
My work uniform, because I just got off. Black pants and a polo shirt.

75. What does your hair look like?
Plain brown pulled back into a pony-tail with some longer bangs hanging loose and currently annoying the hell out of me as they blow in the wind of the fan.

76. Ever climbed out a window?
Yep. In my parents' own version of a fire drill while still living in Georgia.

77. Can you handle the truth?
Depends on the issue.

78. What was the most recent thing you bought?
A book.

79. How often do you talk on the phone?
Very rarely. Even more rarely for pleasure.

80. What's the longest you talked to someone on the phone?
I think....3 hours?

81. Do you hate/dislike more than 3 people?
Oh yeah. I can name quite a few.

83. Are you sarcastic?
Who, me?

84. Have you ever slapped someone?
I have, and taken great pleasure from it.

85. Do looks matter?
Only when first impressions count. Or during performance.

86. Do you use chapstick?
I live in a desert. My lips would be nonexistent without it.

87. Are you too forgiving?
Sometimes.

88. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Little buttons. Like the ones that say "God protect me from all the idiots who may cross my path" Those kind.

89. Do you own a gun?
I have...2. BB gun, and a blowgun, if that even counts. I like archery much better. I do have a compound and a recurve bow, and am a better shot with my brother's guns (shotgun, .22, and wetherby 270 elk rifle) than he is.

90. Where are you located?
We don't like nothin' too technical in these here parts of Washington. (state)

91. Have you ever been in a castle?
Sadly, no, even though my family is the heir to one in Germany if we were able to prove it besides through hand-me-down stories.

92. Do you like your hair?
Yeah, but I'm planning on getting it cut a little shorter and getting some subtle highlights.

93. Do you like yourself?
Mostly.

95. question deleted.
O...kay?

96. When was the last time you talked on aim?
Two days ago, I think...wait...no...that was MSN. Nevermind.

97. Random statement:
I <3 eggs

99. What are you doing today?
working, then getting on here to update this stupid thing, and I'm about to go to sleep.

100. Tag.
Some peeps?

EVEN MOR LULZ!

British
[ ] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell." -I say a lot of shit actually. XD -
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy. -OMNOMNOMNOM-
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 2


Australian
[x] you wear flip flops all year. -Dude, I live in FL, lol-
[x] You call flip flops "thongs", not flip flops. -I actually alternate-
[x] You love a backyard Barbie. -Who doesn't?-
[x] You know a Barbie is not a doll. -lulz-
[x] You love the beach. -Again... FLORIDA-
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing. -Roo said whut?-
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[x] You have an Australian something. -*snerk* Shepherd? ... Nuuu DON'T SHOOT ME. I am well aware Aussies are an American breed. Actually I have a couple trinkets and stuff from Aussie... Plus Dracie is my bitch. Does that count? LAWL.-
Total: 7

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show. NO
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[ ] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10". -ROO IS SHORT YO-
[ ] You know what an Italian horn is.
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[x] You talk with your hands. -Sometimes it's dangerous. XD-
Total: 3

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak Spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos. -TACOOOOOOOOOOOO-
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[ ] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[] You know what platanos are.
Total: 3

Russian
[ ] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered. -RAWR-
[ ] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[ ] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you. -I ike dancing in the rain-
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather. -As long as I'm expecting it to be cold,I'm good-
total: 3

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y or L.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a St. Patty’s day party.
[x] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have red hair.
[x] You have/had freckles.
[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total: 5

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[x] You know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance.
[x] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 4

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[x] You are good at math.
[x] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from Asia.
[ ] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're Chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 3

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[x] You speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[x] You hate it when stupid people call you.
[ ] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2.
Total: 6

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[ ] You know what poutine is.
[ ] You speak some French.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's.
[x] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[x] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total: 3 <----------that's a relief

American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians.
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You have had an abortion.
[x] But love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
[ ] You shop at walmart.
[x] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 3 <---------Wait. I'm more black than American? This is...odd.

Belgian:
[x] you grow some small vegetables in the yard.
[x] you like french fries.
[x] you think Belgian (or hungarian) chocolate rules.
[ ] you know that the 'official best beer in the world' is Belgian.
[ ] you speak both Dutch and French
[x] you like Belgian waffles.
[ ] you call a pub or bar a café.
[x] you fully realize and acknowledge that your football team sucks.
[x] you drive/own a French or German car.
[ ] you have a lot of comments on your government.
total: 6

Dutch:
[x] you like the color orange.
[x] you are a football enthusiast.
[x] you often go to 'coffee shops'.
[x] you know what is meant by 'coffee shops'.
[x] you tend to overreact and show your emotions.
[x] you have a cheerful nature. mostly
[ ] you like the sea. not my favorite but...
[x] you are good at building/handiwork/projects.
[ ] you tend to favor the megalomania.
total: 7

It seems I am Dutch, with Germany and Belgium coming in a close second. Too bad I'm nearly half German.

So yeah. It's obviously been a little while since I updated this stupid thing. Seriously, I've tried to update it like three other times, but every time my internet would die on me and I would lose the entire journal. And me being the lazy and easily-frustrated person that I am, didn't want to put up with writing it over. So this is the stuff you get, 3 months later. I have a lot to catch up on, so I'll make it brief.

May: AP testing sucked
Chem and Pre-calc finals were the easiest things ever
AP Lit teacher was a you-know-what
I stole my brother's old job at Terra Blanca Vintners
Bro got a new job at a Retirement Home as a Caregiver

June: I graduated! Woohoo!
Went to Senior party and had a blast
Watched people get hypnotized and be their TRUE selves
Got a henna tattoo of a kanji symbol for tranquility
Started looking for another job for during the week
Hooked my friend up with a job at TBV
She loves it
Got a guitar! And am teaching myself to play it still
Haven't had a flute lesson in over a month
Get said second job at the local Hospital as a food service worker
Chaos ensues

July: Nothing much.
My car caught on fire
I think it was arson, along with the police and my dad
Nothing's left save the two bumpers, wheels, three tires, spare tire, and the headlight rims
Everything else = scorched ash
Including my sketchbook that I accidentally left in the car
Must go get new one soon
Found a new VW bus (now named Duke) that will be my car unless I find another Beetle I like
I need a break

So yeah. There's your quick rundown of what's happened in my life in three months. Now, since this is serving more as a rant than informative, I shall proceed with the angry stuff.

First off, my job. Er..jobs. One, I absolutely love. The people are nice, I'm treated as an equal, I have responsibilities, I'm important, and the location is beautiful. That's Terra Blanca Vintners. I work as a 'barback' there, which means I wash glasses and manage a sample table. And the really BIG and AWESOME kitchen is mine! Well, not really, but I see it as mine, since I'm the one who works in it most of the time. Well, me and Natalie who I recommended be hired when the owner decided we need more barbacks. Anyway, that job I love. I can go straight to the OWNER of the winery with a complaint and they'll try to fix it. No real hierarchy anymore (or rather since BlueFish aka Dori the tasting room manager) resigned. So yeah. I like that job.

My second job is less than perfect. I'm new there, yet no one seems to be willing to give me the benefit of the doubt. I have absolutely no IDEA what the hell I'm doing there, yet I keep getting shoved towards tasks I don't know how to do. One lady is particularly bad at this, and I'm glad I don't have to work with her today or tomorrow. My trainer for one shift was very patient, and I was actually learning stuff. The one problem with today is, I'm working a shift I haven't TRAINED FOR YET! How the hell am I supposed to work efficiently if I don't know what my duties for that shift are? One of my managers (David) says that I'll be fine, but he doesn't know my stress levels or how easily they rise to the breaking point. Seriously. My other manager (Toni) is on vacation this week, so I can't tell him needed information--like the fact that I have college orientation next week and can't work. Thankfully, I caught David doing the scheduling and told him, so I should have next week mostly off. If not, I'll call in sick. Simple as that. I told him I couldn't change the dates and that I can't work weekends to make up for it, so hopefully that will be fixed.

I have yet to get a regular schedule from these guys, and it's really starting to fray my nerves. I NEED a flute lesson, and I can't get one unless I know what day I have free to schedule a weekly deal. I need to have lessons to help prepare me for Central's Flute Studio, which is (I'm told) extremely cut-throat. And I don't do well without a teacher listening to my playing and telling me what I'm doing wrong. I often can't hear my own mistakes, or just ignore them, since I'm rather impatient. So yeah. That's beginning to stress me out. I'll have to talk to Toni when he gets back from vacation to discuss a regular schedule. I do NOT want to be the person to just be thrown in where ever a body is needed. That insults my intelligence and the fact that Toni asked me to work there, and I'm not even working the position he told me I'd be working. It's degrading and I'm almost fed up with it. Seriously.

And my car. Jake. My lime green, 1972, new engine, customized interior, new sterio, and fully restored VW Super Beetle is now a scorched, blackened, charred husk sitting in front of my house. Last Tuesday, I hooked him up to a battery charger because he wouldn't even turn over. I had left his lights on all the previous day on accident and needed to get jumped to get hom from work. That was Monday. Mom and I moved my car in front of our house on Tuesday so the extension cable would reach far enough to plug in the battery charger. So we plugged it in and put the charge box inside my car to avoid the cables being jostled and a spark starting the fire we tried to avoid.

But Mom woke me up at 3:30 Wednesday morning to show me my precious Jake engulfed in flames. The fire dept. was trying to put them out, but the magnesium in the engine kept the fire going. By the end of it (I watched until the fire was out), my car was gone. There was nothing I could do to stop the fire from burning everything. The interior is nothing but wire framing and melted glass and metal. The only paint that is left is on the driver's side rear fender and passenger side front fender. The bumpers, wheels, three tires, and headlight rims and eyebrows were the only things salvagable from the blaze. So Jake is dead.

I cried for hours. But somehow I managed to fall back asleep (probably due to shock and exhaustion) and woke up a few hours later. I couldn't even force myself to walk outside and look at my car because I didn't want it to be real. I wanted it to be a dream. But I could see it in my parents' eyes. Jake was actually gone. The car I had put so much of myself into was really gone. After 2 years of constant love, care, and driving...gone. But now I have someone to blame besides myself for leaving the charger on all night. The jackass who lit my car on fire.

I have several bits of evidence to support this, too. One, is the fact that the charge box was OUTSIDE my car while the fire was being put out. I had put it inside, remember? The second is, that if the fire truly did start at the battery, why isn't the battery completely gone? Or the charger cable clips not completely melted? Or a strip of paint still left on the quarter panel right beside the battery? Another thing is that magnesium doesn't catch fire from heat alone. And the wind was blowing away from my engine compartment. If the fire had really started because of the charger sparking, the engine should have remained relatively intact, not the melted pile of metal it is now.

And a neighborhood park burned down the next night, around the same time. I don't think that's coincidence. So we're returning the police's call regarding arson, and will hopefully nail the arsonist's ass against the wall. S/he killed my car. I want them to pay for what they did. My family and I had put somewhere around 6 thousand dollars into my car, and all it is gone. And the insurance company won't pay that much, only Kelly Blue Book value which is 1500 at the most. But mostly I want to see the one who had the gall to torch my car. And I want to hit them, and hit them hard. Preferably with a baseball bat. Or light their pants on fire, just to show how much watching my car burn hurt me.

Yes. I'm angry. But I have EVERY RIGHT to be pissed off. My car is gone. I'll never be able to drive him again. And to think that someone thought it would be FUNNY to burn someone's car is well beyond my ability to rationalize. And I tend to rationalize things when I'm stressed. I can't do that this time. Whoever did it is a complete Jackass. And I want them to see how much it hurt. Yes, I know this isn't like me. But my car just burned beyond every possible HOPE of repair. My life has been altered, and my perception of neighborhood safety will never be the same. I don't trust kids with fireworks, and I don't trust kids with nothing to do. Things like this happen. Needless to say, I didn't watch the 4th of July fireworks, and I don't think I ever will. I no longer like fire, and I used to be a pyromaniac. It just reminds me of Jake.

But I am making a shadowbox in memory of him, since he was my first car. I have a picture of he and I, a spare key (since mine were still in the ignition, which is unlike me to forget my keys in my car), a strip of paint, a piece of melted glass, two peices of melted metal, chrome from the door-handles and aluminum from the engine, a chrome detail piece, half of the VW emblem that was on my hood, and a mini dicast version of my car, complete with window paint, that my friends gave me for my Senior Band Roast. All that's going into a shadowbox so I can remember my first car in prime condition and not the burned husk sitting in the street in front of my house. I even have a little nametag I'm coloring to put in it, and a brightly colored flower. I'm going to miss him.

And I was tagged by in her journal, so here y'all are! The random questions of the apocolyspe!

1. tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all taggees on their profile that they have been tagged,
and link to your journal

[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars. (*counts* At least 5)
[] I tan easily. (they call me...the peeler)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. (if highlighting it counts)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (ocassionaly)
[] I have/I've had braces. (I was blessed with good teeth, though my mom might disagree)
[x] I wear glasses. (and contacts when my eyes feel like cooperating)
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (At Prom actually, and I had no idea who the guy was, though he was standing next to another guy-friend...)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears. -nose, eyebrow, tongue
[x] I have freckles. (a few on my face, mostly on my arms and one in the perfect place to be hidden by my ring)
[ ] I hate my dad.
[ ] I hate my mom.
[x] I have a brother. (two, and they're both pains)
[ ] I have a sister. (she might be more sympathetic if I did)
[ ] I've sworn at my parents (If I did that, I'd be out on my rear)
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together. (thank God for that)
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday. (someday, yes. Soon, no.)
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[x] I'm in school. (Almost done with high school! Senior Power bebeh!)
[ ] I have a job. (I've had a job, just don't have one right now)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (can you say "AP Chem"?)
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. (Band trip. Sad, yes.)
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. (every year. I'm a nerd)
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year. (Nope. Would be killed if I did.)
[x] I've stolen something from my job. (Stickers...wine labels...wine keys (aka multitasking corkscrew)...um...yeah)
[ ] I've been fired. (not technically, but still..)
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. (and I'd promptly die afterwards)
[x] Disney movies still make me cry. (Fox and the Hound. Yep. And Air Bud, but I don't know if that's Disney..)
[x] I've peed from laughing. (*slowly raises hand*)
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (Wish I'd done it recently.)
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. (Does having a genetic tendancy towards brain anurisms count?)
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples. (never even been to the emergancy room)
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend. (Twice. Bro had surgery, mom had blood pressure issues.)
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. (They're just now growing in)
[ ] I had a serious surgery. (again, no serious injuries unless anemia counts, though I doubt it does)
[ ] I've had chicken pox. (and hope I never do)
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada. (for like fifteen minutes haha)
[a] I've been to Mexico. (never go to Tiajuana)
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. (I wish)
[ ] I've been to Europe. (Again, I wish)
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city (When I moved here, yeah. And trying to get to a pianist's house the other day. Hey, I come from a town with less than 500 people to a city of over 200K, what'd you expect?)
[x] I've seen a shooting star
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (yay for not caring what people think while on band trips. everyone acts that way. And heck, I went out to get the mail in a towel.)
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (and got promptly kicked for it)
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (you have no idea how many times)
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving. (I wish, hard core)
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle. (don't think I would either.)
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car. (I've hit someone, but not 'crashed'
[x] I've been Skiing. (and still suck at it)
[ ] I've been in a play. (does the pit count?)
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace. (don't have a myspace and proud of it)
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi. (spider rolls for the win!)
[x] I've been snowboarding. (and still failed)
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. (no comment)
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I'm bi.
[ ] I'm gay.
[ ] I've had sex. (nope. And not planning to for a while yet)
[ ] I've had phone sex.
[ ] I've cybered.
[ ] I've had sex in public. (can you say 'awkward'?)
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler. (if I ever get a boyfriend)
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain. (a fantasy of mine)
[x] I've hugged a stranger. (it was church camp and we were both emotional. don't ask.)
[ ] I have kissed a stranger
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. (definately at least once)
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world. (too many)
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test. (oh look at that, I'm not Little Miss Goody Two-Shoes.)
[x] I've run a red light. (at 2:30 in the morning after a long day of work when I had a job)
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've consumed alcohol. (only wine, though.)
[ ] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking. (I found out the hard way that I'm a light weight. One glass of port, and I'm gone.)
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. (after horse-pills for iron suppliments, I can pop anything)
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic. (I love food too much)
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. (only when I'm depressed)
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[ ] I'm afraid of dying. (I shouldn't fear death. Everyone dies eventually. why fear the inevetable?)
[ ] I hate funerals. (I've been to too many to hate them. More like indifferent)
[x] I've seen someone dying. (my grandma, but I didn't know I would never see her again at the time)
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player. (Dell DJ!)
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything.
[ ] I own a cosplay outfit.
[x] I know what cosplay means.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic. (the buttons. I <3 teh buttons)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay. (my beginner model flute, my metal piccollo...)
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie. (I boycott places like them)
[x] I can sing well. (Or so I was told)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily. (A side of me, yes. Only close friends get more than that, and that takes a while)
[ ] I watch the news. (I listen to it on the radio)
[ ] I don't kill bugs (They're annoying. Especially spiders and these little pesky moth things that get into everything)
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. (I want music, not rhyming. If I wanted rhyme, I'd read Dr. Suess.)
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. (grammer nazi)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat. (with certain things. like computer files. they're all nice and organized and alphabetized)
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day. (it was summer, I was bored, and there was a pile of CD's. You do the math)
[ ] I bake well. (nope. Only from boxes.)
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. (Green!)
[x] I've worn pajamas to school. (yay for comfort)
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun. (and can beat my bro in a contest)
[ ] I am in love with love. (I wouldn't know)
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[ ] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts. (spirits, not ghosts. There's a difference)
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. (cough. government)
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. (nope. they annoy me and scare me, but somehow they manage to avoid detection)
[ ] I am really ticklish. (only in one spot that is guarded when around friends who know it)
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails. (what nails?)
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life (I hope I know, since I'm heading to college for something this fall)
[x] I loath lables. (stereotypes, yes. Labels for things, no)
[x] I like action movies.
[ ] I like horror movies.
[x] I know the most random facts about things people have never heard of before. (they make good conversation starters. Or enders.)
[ ] I can't spell.
[x] I treasure my friends. (without them, I'd be lost.)
[x] I think of others before myself. (when I'm not near my youngest bro or PMSing)
[x] All of those are answered honestly. (You can ask for explanations and I'll answer depending on how personal the question is *has different veiws of personal then most people, fyi*)

And now I tag....ten random people! Seriously, I don't care if anyone else does this or not. But hey, I was tagged, so why not do it?

Time to get that other journal off my front page. Not that this one will be any better but...

I found out my Solo and Ensemble results today, and they kind of pissed me off. I didn't even make the 2nd Alternate spot to go to the State competition! And I know exactly why too! My accompanist screwed up in the middle of the solo, even after I gave her a clear tempo, screwed up my counting, and basically made me look like an idiot who doesn't know how to choose an appropriate level of music. *growls*

Needless to say, I'm a bit hacked. And it's my senior year, God damn it! My band director tried to console me by saying how well I've done throughout high school. Like hell! That doens't work when you fail your final year of elegability to compete! Damn it! I went to state as a sophomore, an alternate for last year (cuz I was sick when I performed), and don't even get a chance this year! How is that consolation?

Anyway. No real good news to report, so I won't try. Oh, here's something stolen from ~Evendar Enjoy.

::WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I...::

I died:

I kissed you:

I fell:

I lived next door to you:

I showed up at your house unexpectedly:

I stole something:

I was murdered:

I cried:

I asked you to marry me:

I was hospitalized:

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::

Personality:

Eyes:

Hair:

Family:

Smile:

::WOULD YOU::

Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?

Keep a secret if i told you one?

Hold my hand?

Study with me?

Cook for me?

Love me?

Date me?

Have sex with me?

::HAVE YOU EVER::

Lied to make me feel better?

Wanted to kiss me?

Wanted to kill me?

Broke my heart?

Thought I was unbearably annoying?

Hated me?

Wanted to tell me someting but didn't?

Wondered about my sanity?

Wanted to do something to me?

::More::

When and how did we meet?

Describe me in three words.

What was your first impression of me?

What do you think of me now?

What reminds you of me?

Could you see us together forever?

When's the last time you saw me?

Are you gonna repost this to see what I say about you?

You fill this out in the journal comments. Yeah.